I have been reading so many wonderful blogs of others, every time I go to add to mine, I just feel really silly and think oh dear that is not good enough, I must either stop reading all the other wonderful blogs or try to just get on with mine in my own unique if slightly different way and even if it isn't something others want to read, its a diary for me!
How many times I start typing only to leave it half way through, so I am now taking on the Britmums Blog Prompt of the week, yes you guessed it, as its the title - Its all about what I cannot live without....
I could be all Mummsey and say my children, I could be gluttonous and say Chocolate but in all honesty one of them I can live without and the other isn't even worth mentioning as I am a Mum (though wouldn't mind a break now and again!).
The thing I have thought long and hard over, well OK fibbing slightly there, it came quickly to me I know full well what I can't live without, how miserable and isolated I have felt without it and that I use it for a sanctuary of sorts, is yes my laptop and access to the Internet, in fact its my link to the outside and grown up world!
Being a single mum can at times be very isolating, love my children of course I do, but we all need adult company in some shape or form at times to keep sane, or maybe its just me!
I use the net as a crutch, without it I feel so cut off, I get very low, having suffered very badly with PND it helped me, in fact my laptop is an extension of me, not many will understand, I mean what did we all do before computers and the world wide web?
Oh yes the telephone used to be my best friend, enabling me to keep in touch and up to speed with friends, now its my Internet connection.
I was lucky to take all four of my children away this summer holidays just gone, but alone which I had never done before, but thank goodness I took my laptop too, because all through the day we were busy and having a wonderful time, it was in the evenings when the children were in bed, I was lonely, well until I set up my laptop with a dongle!
I don't have a fancy phone that I can use to access the net easily, its partly due to being a dinosaur and scared I wont be able to use it easily and also down to I can not afford one, so my trusted laptop is the one item I cannot and will not at any cost live without!